A recurring theme here is the struggle between being healthy, exercising, and at a "healthy" weight, and just accepting that the lifestyle I have, and mostly enjoy, will keep me hovering around the 200 lb mark. I have to admit I'm having a hard time getting over the hump. A few years ago I did manage to work out almost daily, eat around 1500 calories a day, and splurge for one meal a week and I did loose about 40 lbs. The reality is, however, that I really like food so I eat too much of it, I work a ton of hours and I'm already down to 6-7 hours of sleep a night without working out, and I kinda like the way things are. Would I rather be skinny and have all of this too, of course! Would I rather be skinny and not have all of this? I'm not so sure. There are already so many things that I really want to do that I don't have time for...do I want to add one in that I'm not especially excited about?
So I guess what I'm saying is that I know what I have to do to loose weight, but I'm just not at a point where I'm willing to make those sacrifices. And I'm not sure what will get me there either. I guess a good health scare would but my blood pressure is fine and I'm still under 30 so that is unlikely to happen anytime soon. My husband agreeing to turn over a new leaf with me but that is also unlikely. My interest in everything else could drop off and I could suddenly be free to fit in the working out and cooking. Hmm, probably also not going to happen.
I'm just not looking forward to a life of doing what I should do, instead of what I want to do. If you've gotten over this hurdle, how did you? What changed your mind?
Posted by jgrieves at April 23, 2004 01:42 PM | TrackBack